Lunch

“I miss your cock.”

He looked down at his phone, an instant jolt making him stiffen in his jeans as he read her text. The train was entering the outskirts of the city, and he was getting ready to disembark at the next station.

He stared at it a moment, then quickly typed out a reply: “You’ll have it in you soon enough. I’m going to fuck you raw.”

Not a minute had passed before his phone beeped again.

“Do you promise?”

She was sitting at her desk at work, her fingers dancing over the screen of her phone as they played their little game, her eyes sparkling with mischief and desire, widening ever so slightly as she received his response:

“Yes, lover. I’m going to bend you over the nearest table, flip your skirt up, and ram my cock all the way into your pussy in one go. And you’re going to take it, baby – hard. I promise you that.”

She gasped just a little as she read his words, delicious and devilish; tantalising and so full of promise. Her tongue fluttered over her lips as her mouth suddenly went very dry.

“Oh.”

He loved her little “oh”s. So much conveyed in such a very little sound. The gasp of surprise and shock and suddenly overpowering lust; the moment in which she gave up the game and just surrendered to him; the knowledge that he had the power to reduce her to a puddle of quivering wetness – “oh” conveyed all that and more.

 “Oh”, soft and breathy, when he ran his finger lightly up from the hollow of her neck to her chin, her head rising with it until he held her face balanced on his fingertip, her eyes closed and her mouth hanging half-open.

“Oh”, a low moan, when he ran his mouth gently along the curve of her breast, trailing kisses up the swell before swiftly taking her nipple in his mouth and rolling it on his tongue, pulling at it with his mouth.

“Oh”, a sharp gasp, when he blindfolded her and ran his hands very lightly down her sides, causing a wave of goosebumps to travel across her flesh, before scratching her skin with his nails, making her arch her back and bite her lip.

“Oh”, a startled cry, when he clamped his lips firmly onto her pussy, and ran his tongue over her puffy outer lips and slick inner ones, deliberately avoiding her clit to make her squirm beneath him.

“Oh”, a lust-heavy groan, when he knocked her legs apart, held her wrists down, and slid into her in one long, steady motion, stretching her with his girth.

Truly, her “oh”s were wonderful things.

“You’d like that, wouldn’t you? Are you wet for me right now?”

She bit her lip, squirming a little in her seat. There was a moist heat between her legs, and she knew that it would only build until she did something about it. She often masturbated at work, but knowing that she would see him soon was enough reason to wait.

“Like you wouldn’t believe.”

“How wet? Are your panties soaked yet?”

“They are. I can’t wait to see you.”

He read her text, keeping one eye on the train’s progress, not wanting to miss his stop. An idea occurred to him, and a grin slowly spread across his face as he typed out his response.

“Go to the restroom and take them off. I want you to hand them over to me when I see you next.”

A minute’s silence. The phone beeped again.

“What?”

“Do it.”

They met at a restaurant that specialised in the American diner experience – steaks, sizzlers, cheesy fries, the works. She had already been waiting a while when he finally arrived, and their faces lit up as they spotted each other across the room. She jumped up and nearly knocked him over with her hug, which he enthusiastically returned. They stood there a moment, savouring each other’s nearness, before letting each other go and settling down. 

They snacked on the complimentary bread basket while waiting for their food to arrive. As they got over the initial rush of seeing each other, and settled into the comfortable feeling of being around each other, he put his arm around her shoulders and she leaned into him contentedly. Eventually, their food arrived and they began to eat, savouring each bite as much as the company they were in.

As the meal wound down, she found his left hand on her thigh, slowly rubbing up and down. The gentle friction was electrifying, adding to the earlier pool of wetness between her legs. With her panties gone, the feeling of arousal was even harder to ignore as she felt the moisture begin to start slipping down her pussy lips towards her ass. She bit her lip and tried not to squirm, hoping that he hadn’t noticed the effect he was having on her.

“Did you do as I told you?”

Her eyes widened imperceptibly as she looked at him, his eyes locking with hers, his gaze deep and intense. She knew exactly what he was talking about, but somehow, talking about it was proving to be very difficult.

She nodded very slightly, her eyes dropping and resting on the nearly empty plate of food before her.

“Good girl. Now hand them over.”

She reached for her purse with shaky hands, withdrawing a neatly folded pair of white panties, and handed them over to him without meeting his eyes. They were perceptibly damp, and the musky, sweet scent of her juices filled the air around them.

“Look at me.”

She looked up, startled, her wide eyes showing a hint of trepidation.

He took her chin in his hand, gently caressing it with his thumb. She swallowed nervously.

“You’ve done well. Does it turn you on to know that you’re sitting here next to me with nothing but a skirt covering your pussy?”

She nodded.

He leaned in to whisper in her ear.

“How do you think these people sitting here would react if they knew?”

Her eyes widened even more, and just as she began to shake her head slowly, he continued “don’t worry, you’re secret’s safe with me. But just imagine, if that guy sitting there – he’s your type, isn’t he – knew that all he had to do to have you is drag you over, unzip his pants, and pull you down onto his cock – how do you think he’d react?”

She cleared her throat. “He’d do it.”

“And you would let him.”

She nodded imperceptibly.

“How wet are you right now?” His warm breath tickled her ear, and it felt like every nerve in her body was straining to feel the things he was doing to her with his words. It was torture, being so close to him, yet unable to reach for the back of his neck with her hand, unable to draw him into the long, hot, wet kiss that she was longing to give him.

She moaned, softly. “So wet. I need you.”

“Go to the restroom. Wait there. Do not touch yourself. At all.”

Somewhat unsteadily, she got up and walked across the room, sashaying slightly in her 3-inch black pumps, the curve of her ass perfectly outlined against her skirt, with no panty lines to mar the smoothness. He could imagine her nipples poking stiff and hard into the fabric of her bra, and toyed with the idea of making her remove it and hand it over as well, but decided against it – she was, after all, returning to work after lunch.

He then proceeded to finish the rest of his food, eating with quick, efficient movements. She was already done with her meal, so he ordered a dessert for each of them before rising and walking over to the restroom.

It was a unisex bathroom, neat and nicely done up, with soft lighting. She was standing in front of the mirror, fussing with her hair, when he entered. She watched in the mirror as he shut the door, locked it, and turned to face her. She continued to watch as he walked towards her, his eyes on hers, right until he grabbed her hand and forcefully spun her around, his lips on hers in an instant, kissing her deep and hard. Her hands reached behind his head, locking at the nape of his neck, and she kissed him back with unbridled intensity, even as he lifted her up at the hips and deposited her on the counter.

“I’m so wet, my skirt is starting to soak it up,” she whispered into his mouth.

“Spread your legs for me. I want to finger you,” he breathed into her ear. She was quick to comply, her knees on either side of his hips and her skirt rucked up about her waist as his lips found hers once again, hungrily kissing her, tasting her mouth. He could feel her breath quicken and begin to heave as his finger found her wet pussy and slid in up to the knuckle in one smooth motion. He curled his finger upwards to hit her G-spot, and knew he had found it as she bucked in his arms, a low moan escaping from lips still trapped between his. He flattened the heel of his palm against her pussy so that it would rub against her clit, and began to steadily finger-fuck her.

She seemed to love this, as she attacked his mouth with a renewed ferocity, sucking on his lips till he thought they would bruise, her right hand buried in his hair, her left sneaking down behind the collar of his shirt to trace his shoulder blade. His other hand, till now resting on her left hip, began to tug at her white dress shirt, pulling it out of the skirt. He slid it under the thin material to caress her breast through her bra. When his hand found her nipple, it stiffened under his thumb, and he took his time to pinch and pull at both nipples to make sure they stayed that way. His mouth left hers to trail kisses and licks down her neck and collarbone, his right hand still with one finger buried deep in her pussy, rhythmically finger-fucking her in tandem with her bucking. He could hear her squelching against his hand, her juices almost a flood, as he bent his head to nip at her breasts. She gasped at each nip, her hands in his hair tightening momentarily before she relaxed.

All of a sudden, she pulled his face up with both hands and looked him straight in the eye.

“Fuck me. Please. I need you in me and I need it now. Don’t make me beg any more.”

At this, his thumb found her clit and began rubbing at it. She threw her head back, eyes closed, struggling not to cry out, her hands abandoning their grip on him and instead supporting her weight as she arched back, at the same time leaning both into and away from his manipulation of her most sensitive flesh.

He said her name, then – softly at first, then slightly louder when she failed to respond. Her eyes flew open as he indicated with his eyes that she should look down at the sight of his finger disappearing into her while her thumb rubbed at her clit.

“Do you still want me to fuck you?” he asked, as she watched, mesmerised, mouth hanging open as she drew short, laboured breaths.

“Oh. Oh yes!” she gasped, her hips still moving in time with his hand, which had by now started slowly grinding into her pussy and clit. “I need your cock. I want it. I need you to fuck me. I need you to take me.” This last sentence was spat out through gritted teeth, and she clearly meant it.

“How do you want it?” he asked. “Tell me.”

She bit her lip again, trying to keep from crying out loud. Her eyes were screwed shut and she clearly had to make an effort to string together words to form a sentence.

“Standing up. Push me up against the wall, pin my wrists down, pull my clothes open and fuck me hard.”

“C’mere.”

He pulled her forward into a steamy embrace, kissing her feverishly, his hand leaving her pussy with an audible squelch. She moaned from the sudden emptiness, but let out a barely-contained squeak as he started to nibble on her earlobe, his tongue tracing wet circles around her ear and making her swoon.

His low whisper filled her mind. “Wrap your legs around me.”

She did, her arms wrapping around his neck at the same time. She could feel his hardness rubbing against her pussy through the rough fabric of his jeans and started grinding against him, her skirt still bunched up at her waist, as he lifted her off the counter top and walked over to the wall. Slamming her up against it hard enough to knock the air from her lungs, he buried his head in the crook of her neck, licking, sucking and biting at the spots that he knew would drive her crazy, while she held on for dear life, pinned to the wall, her feet dangling a good six inches off the ground, slowly disentangling from his.

Suddenly, he let go of her and stepped back, and she landed on shaky legs, her arms still resting on his shoulders, as she looked to him to see what he would do next. Her pussy was aching to be filled, her nipples crying out for attention, but she loved the way he was dictating the terms of this encounter. Her arms fell to her sides, her skirt starting to slip back down, her pussy now covered as she shifted her feet and waited for him to tell her what to do, expectation writ large on her face.

“Unbutton your shirt for me, slowly. Take your bra off but leave the shirt on.” His hands were already undoing the fly of his jeans, his eyes following her hands as they tugged at her bra straps, pulling them over and off each arm in turn before they unbuttoned the first two buttons of her shirt ever so slowly and pulled her white bra out and off through the front of her shirt. His cock was out, hard and ready for her, as she put on a little show for him, tweaking her nipples through the fabric of the shirt so that they stood out stiff and erect against the thin white cloth. She slowly undid the rest of the buttons on her shirt, leaning back against the wall, one knee bent with the heel of her foot resting against the wall and her hips pushed out towards him invitingly. As the last button came undone, he stepped forward, and, one hand reaching behind to grip her ass, drove his cock into her in one long, sure stroke, his other hand over her mouth muffling her cry.

Seven Days (Part I)

Thursday

They had just received the keys to the apartment from their landlord that morning, and had spent most of the day just bringing their various belonging over and trying to find a place to fit them. The place was sparsely furnished – a double bed and built-in wardrobe in the bedroom, a plain square wooden dining table with three chairs to go with it, and a built-in hob and chimney in the kitchen. In the style of most Bombay houses, the nearly-floor-level windows were barred, with sliding panes to make maximum use of the space available. The bathroom was compact, but clean. It was enough.

When moving into a new place, one’s belongings seem to take up every available space. And with the knowledge that the kitchen appliances and the washing machine would arrive soon, the two of them knew that they had better get organised, and quickly. They had come armed with cleaning supplies, so they wasted no time in getting to it.

 He got rid of all the dust and dirt in the bedroom and the living room, wiping down all the furniture as well, while she set to work in the kitchen, cleaning each shelf, then laying down newspaper before unpacking and stacking the utensils and dry goods they had managed to purchase.

She unpacked and put down her maroon rug next to the bed. He carefully mounted his framed pictures on the walls of the living room, saving his painting for the spot on the wall opposite their bed. She unpacked and set up his lamp next to the bed, then positioned hers next to the dining table in the living room. He unpacked her curtains – they both agreed that new ones would need to be bought, but that privacy was more important at the moment – and strung them up in the bedroom and the living room. A mattress had been bought and snuck up to their apartment on the 15^th floor through the lift while the watchman was away, and now occupied the bed, inviting the tired couple to just take a couple minutes’ rest, lie down for a bit, what harm could it do....but no, there was too much left to do.

The microwave, fridge, and washing machine arrived in the early afternoon, just as they were wolfing down kaathi rolls from the hole-in-the-wall around the corner, and were installed under his watchful eye. They would have to wait a month or two before buying a TV.

And the unpacking continued. Her speakers, his football kit, their clothes, linen, shoes, pillows, hangers, drinking water bottles, laptops, phone chargers, you name it.

At 8 pm, they stopped, exhausted, and decided to call it a night. All that remained to be unpacked were four cartons of books, which, lacking a bookshelf, they decided to hold off on. He stepped in for a quick shower, too tired to even ask her to join him, while she fried them some eggs and bread for dinner. When he came out, hair wet and shiny, drops of water still running down his body, she was already tucking in, her i’m-sorry-i-was-hungry face on. He shook his head with a smile, tut-tutted, and settled down next to her on the bed, proceeding to demolish the food on the plate before him with savage hunger. It was simple, fresh, hot food, and the best thing on the planet at that moment. He took the dirty dishes to the kitchen to clean up while she went in to bathe. By the time she was done, he was already sprawled on the bed, dead to the world. She dried her hair with a smile on her face, making a mental note that they needed a mirror in the bedroom, and lay down beside him. As she settled down to go to sleep, curling up on her side, he stirred, his arm snaking around her middle, his chest coming up against her back, spooning her perfectly. “G’night,” he mumbled. “Goodnight,” she whispered back.

Friday

When she woke, his morning wood was pressing into the curve of her ass. She lay there a few moments, smiling to herself, as it become apparent that he was still fast asleep. Perfect! She carefully disentangled herself from him, making sure he didn’t stir, before padding into the living room to find her little bag of toys. Thankfully, it was in one of her half-unpacked suitcases, so she grabbed the things that she needed and tip-toed back into the bedroom. He was still asleep. Excellent.

She climbed back onto the bed, positioning herself by his knees, and bent low to the task at hand. His boxers were tenting, his erection out of sight but very apparent, and she quickly slipped them lower down his body so that she could lay her hands on it. She took his cock by the base, her right hand encircling it, and quickly took as much of it in her mouth as she could comfortably manage. Then slowly, she started moving his cock in and out of her mouth, pumping her hand up and down in tandem.

He awoke with the sensation of her wet heat surrounding him, as she squeezed and sucked and massaged his cock with her mouth and hands. She picked up the pace when his half-gasped “wha-?” told him he was finally awake, and his drowsiness quickly turned into a low groan, his head half-raised off the pillow to take in the sight before him. He threw his head back into the pillow, eyes open, breathing shallowly, as she worked him up, her right hand now playing with his balls, now squeezing and pumping his cock, her tongue now licking  up and down his shaft, now drawing lazy circles around his balls before she took them in her mouth one by one. His hand reached down behind her head, pushing her further down and his cock, his hips starting to thrust reflexively in time with her movements.

This was what she had been waiting for. She tightened her grip on the base of his cock so as to retain some control over how deep she let him go, then relaxed her throat and let him slide in as far as she could take him, his cock hitting the back of her throat and his grip in her hair tightening to a painful extent. She could feel her own wetness pooling between her legs, starting to leak out from between her now puffy lips, but ignored it – this was about him, and she had to focus on the way she was making him feel, despite the aching in her loins. He wanted more, she could tell, but she had to ease into it to prevent herself from gagging. Removing one finger of her right hand at a time from around his cock, she slid her mouth lower and lower, taking him deeper in her throat, half-inch by half-inch, till her nose was being tickled by his pubic hair. Her throat felt stretched, but the months of practice with her toothbrush had paid off – her gag reflex hadn’t kicked in yet.

Her little moment of triumph was interrupted by the feeling of him thrusting hard into her mouth, his hand at the back of her head holding her pinned while he started to fuck her deep in her throat. Despite the deep breath she had taken, she knew she would have to come up for air soon, and so tapped him firmly on his side to signal that she needed him to relent a little, which he did – enough for her to breath in through her nose while she continued to lap at him with her tongue. He had raised his head to look down at her as she did this, so she made a show out of it, swirling her tongue around the head of his cock and licking up the underside of his shaft in slow, long strokes, a mischievous glint in her eye.

“Take off your clothes. I want you naked,” he said, his voice hoarse but firm, as he sat up to take his t-shirt off, shrugging out of his boxers with equal speed.

She leaned back to rest on her heels as she took the sight of his body in. Three months apart and it still looked just as gorgeous as the last time they’d been together – his chest smooth and hard, his arms strong and sinewy, his stomach flat with little wisps of hair at his navel that she loved to stroke, and his perfect, sculpted ass and muscular thighs, all of them ticking all the right boxes in her mind.

He adjusted the pillows behind his back so as to be more comfortable, then looked at her, clicking his tongue in impatience when he saw that she was still dressed.

“What are you waiting for?” he said, leaning forward and grabbing her the bottom of her thin t-shirt, dragging it upwards while pulling her forward at the same time. “Get this shit off. Now.”

As she hurried to comply, her t-shirt halfway over her head, obscuring her vision, he said something that brought a rush of wetness to her pussy – something that she had never thought she’d hear him say.

“And then get your mouth back onto my cock. I want to fuck you in the throat.”

This certainly wasn’t the same man. This aggression in bed was new. And she liked it. Very much.

Trying not to grin, she quickly wriggled out of her shorts and panties, and fell upon his cock like a starved child, preparing to deep throat him again. His hand quickly rose to the back of her head, pushing her further down faster than she could accommodate, and she began to gag, tears springing to her eyes as the head of his cock went deeper down her throat than it had before. Despite the discomfort and the fact that she couldn’t breathe, she realised that this was turning her on even more, so she let him continue to fuck her face, using her mouth and throat as he would her pussy, his hand holding her in place while his cock sawed in and out of her open mouth. This was the scene that she so often masturbated to – being forced to suck on a cock, to take it deep in her throat, with tears pouring down her face as she was mercilessly skull-fucked, used and abused in the most degrading way. She closed her eyes, her heart pounding, and could feel her arousal building from the humiliation of it all, and wondered, even as his thrusts became less frequent, but harder and deeper, indicating that he was close to coming, if he knew what he was doing to her. As he thrust into her throat one final time, grinding his crotch into her face, before spurting his seed deep down her throat, she resolved to ask him at some point.

When he was done, she eased her now-sore throat and mouth off his cock and sat back on her heels again, eyes still closed, slowly wiping the spit that had spread over her jaw with the back of her hand. She took deep breaths and swallowed to clear her mouth, trying to will her heart to stop racing, the tears feeling cool on her flushed face as they dried. When she opened her eyes, he was leaning back against the pillows, staring at her with an indecipherable expression on  his face – half-satisfied, half-alarmed, and half-something else entirely. Neither of them spoke for a few seconds, the distant sounds of traffic from the streets below echoing in the half-empty room.

“Was that-?” she blurted, at the same time as he said, “Are you-?”

They both fell silent again, watching each other.

Finally, she decided to give it another go, and said, “Was that good for you? Did you like it?”

He looked at her strangely, then said, “Yeah, I did...but...you’re crying. Are you okay? I didn’t mean to thrust so hard, I’m sorry – I didn’t mean to hurt you, it just felt so good that I couldn’t stop, my eyes were closed and I didn’t realise that-”

She interrupted him with a vigorous “Nonono! You haven’t hurt me, love, don’t worry. I mean, I might be a little sore, but...you see...I liked what you just did. I’m incredibly turned on right now, because I love the way you used my mouth – it’s what I fantasize about so often, and to have you do that was just so amazing...”

She broke off as he was staring at her in disbelief.

“What?”

“You are one strange woman. You’re crazy. You liked that? There are tears flowing down your face right now, and you tell me that you liked that?”

“I’ve told you before that I like pain, and humiliation, and being used. You’re just too much of a gentleman to do any of those things. I don’t think you have it in you to disrespect me in bed. But the way you held me in place just now...I loved it, and loved you for doing it. I was surprised, yeah, but I wasn’t about to stop you and ask why you were doing this now, of all times. I just went with it. And I’m glad I did.”

“Well...it’s strange, and I certainly didn’t mean to do it. I wouldn’t want to force you in any way.”

She sighed. “That’s what I was afraid of. But it’s okay. Don’t sweat it. I like it when we do vanilla stuff just as much.” She hoped that he wouldn’t see through the lie.

She quickly kissed him on the lips and, before he could say anything, climbed off the bed, taking her clothes with her, not really wanting to continue the conversation. She shut the bathroom door and began to brush her teeth, a little disappointment welling up inside her, at the same time mirrored by a growing fount of resignation. She decided to snap out of it – there was so much to be happy about that she really didn’t want to let this bring her down – and felt much better as she splashed some water on her face. She dressed in the privacy of the bathroom, thinking about what they could eat for breakfast – there was milk in the now-functioning fridge and she was sure they had picked up some cereal the day before, besides which she fancied a cup of tea – and was just walking through the door, putting her hair up, when he stepped in front of her, holding her bag of toys in one hand and the vibrator that she’d left on the bed in the other, his eyebrows raised.

Fuck. She’d forgotten to put them away in her rush to get away from the conversation. Fuck fuck fuck.

How Do I Explain This?

How do I explain this?

I barely know you. Yes, we've traded stories, we grew up in the same city, you went to the all-boys' school across the road from my all-girls' school, and you even know some of the people I knew back then. But those are coincidences, funny isn't-that-cools, conversation fodder that quickly gets chewed through and spit out. I don't know how much there is beneath all of that, below the surface, that could draw us together, that could stick. So yeah, I barely know you.

I barely know you, but you've had your lips on mine, your hands down my panties, your fingers in my hair, your breath in my ear. You have made me moan and gasp and squirm and by all things just and beautiful, you are good. I have sung your praises to my friends, relived the highlights of that night in quiet moments in the days since. I have wanted more since the moment I stepped out of your car and walked back into my house. I have wanted to drink in your lips, those sweet, soft lips of yours - to suck on them and get lost in them the way I did that night - again. Again and again and again. I want to wake up with my own lips feeling tender because you couldn't get enough of them either. Again! I want to spend my time exploring your body, letting my tongue dance across it in that way that you loved, letting sensory perception overwhelm me, carry me away. I want you.

And how do I explain this? I barely know you.

Thanks to you and your expert ministrations, the beast in me has reawakened, and wants to be fed; but I don't want to scare you away with my hunger. Besides which, I want to do this right. So I behave. I tell stories awkwardly, because I'm distracted by your lips or your neck, and I embellish because I'm not really sure what I would say once the story is over and the silence returns, a silence that I only want to break in one way. I act like a blithering idiot when I'm texting you because it is taking every ounce of self-control I have to not send you blistering word-images of my want, of the things I want to do to you and the intensity with which I want to be able to do them. I spout meaningless words because my mind is occupied with the remembered feel of your cock in my hand, delicious anticipation building, and building, and - yes! - building in me.

When I'm talking to you, I cannot string a meaningful sentence together because I want you so. I don't know what you think of me. Somewhere in my head, I hope I haven't been cause for disappointment. I can't help it - you're...distracting, to say the least.

I cannot tell you this because...dammit, I barely know you.

Tricky Tricky

It starts as it always does, with my hormones driving me crazy and turning me into a moody, murderous bitch. Something small, insignificant really, sets me off and I round on you, irritable and snappish, going off into the deep end almost immediately, my voice rising in volume and pitch till I’m screaming at you, your face an unreadable mask of calm that for some reason aggravates me even more. I needle you, looking for a reaction, pushing for it, but you only reply to my questions with short, to-the-point answers that bring angry tears to my eyes. I want to hit you, to hurt you so that the ineffable calm of your visage is wiped away, and with that in mind, I move towards you, some form of violence at the forefront of my thoughts. But before I can raise my hand, you flip me around and grab me in a bear hug, pinning my arms to my sides even as I struggle and curse you in frustration. Your voice is in my ear, saying, "hey, hey, hey, calm down, there’s no need to do this." My freer hand beats against your side ineffectually and I grow increasingly violent until you have to let go of me. I turn around immediately, asking you, "who the fuck you think you are? And how dare you treat me like that?" Before I know it, I’ve burst into tears, my helplessness at their arrival making it all somehow worse.

You don’t answer, simply gather me in your arms and hold me tight to you. I still struggle, not sure why, but wanting to struggle anyway. I am still crying, my cheeks wet with tears, mouth twisted in that strange way that mouths do when people cry, and I feel like I’m heartbroken. You repeat the words again, softer this time, "hey, hey, hey. Calm down. Come on." I try to, but before I know it I’ve been taken over by another heaving sob, and your lips are pressed against mine even through the salty rivers of tears running down my cheeks and most certainly flavouring my lips. I breathe you in like I’m gasping for air, half-sobs catching in my throat as you drown them out with your kiss. I need this. I need it hard and raw and deep, like I’ve never needed it before. My hands reach behind your head and slip through your hair, settling at the nape of your neck, pulling you deeper into the kiss. Your left arm is still wrapped around me, your right hand tangled in my hair, and you guide us to the couch, laying me down very slowly onto it. You settle in above me and start to kiss me again, moving away from my mouth to slowly kiss up all my tears, from my eyes to my nose to the little drop on my chin. I blink at the feel of your tongue on my cheek as it tastes my tears, wanting you close, never far away. You pause for a moment to look into my still-confused, slightly teary eyes, and you say, low and clear, “I love you. Please don’t cry.”And as you come back to kiss me again, this time there is a heat to the feel of your salty tongue on mine that is unmistakable.

I can feel your body hard against mine, and I scoot a little so that it moulds to my curves, wanting to be in contact with as much of you as possible. Clothes are starting to feel like a hindrance, but just as I’m contemplating reaching down to pull off my top, your lips find my neck, a few inches below my ear, and I forget everything. Your lips are gentle, your tongue soft and warm and wet, and I melt under your touch. I squirm against you, my breath catching in my throat, and you shift a little so that I can feel your hardening cock against my thigh. I love that feeling, and grind against it, so that you know that I’ve noticed. Your head cocks slightly as I do this, your body stilled, enjoying the sensation.

We are both in a hurry now – me, because I just want to be fucked into oblivion so that I can give my raging hormones an outlet, and you because...well, you want me and you want me now. My top is pulled up over my breasts, and while your mouth dips to my nipples and you roll around them with your hot tongue, I quickly tug it off and out of the way, thanking my stars that I’m not wearing a bra. You are soon kneeling over me, one hand fiddling at the fly of my jeans, trying to undo the button. I help you with it and we slide it down so that you can slip your hand down, under the elastic waistband of my panties, to stroke my pussy lips. There is a fierce ache in my loins and I need to put the fire out as soon as possible, but your light strokes are causing all coherent thought to flee my mind. I moan, at which your head snaps back up, regarding my half-closed eyes with a wicked grin, and I find that I am moaning into your mouth, which has covered mine with furious intent. I can still taste my tears on your tongue.  Your fingers are still stroking, stroking, stroking my pussy lips, gathering all the wetness there and slowly spreading it upwards so that you will have enough to stroke my clit with.

I want to spread my legs wide for you as you do this, so I push you off and tug my jeans and underwear off in one hurried tangle, lying back down with one leg hooked over the back of the sofa, watching you as you take your t-shirt off – my eyes drinking in the sight of your muscled chest and arms and your smooth stomach – and then home in on my pussy. You settle with your face hovering just above it, leaning on one arm while you resume stroking my pussy lips with the fingers of the other hand – long, languid strokes that are sending shivers down my spine and making me squirm. You’re teasing me mercilessly and I almost want to weep again from the helplessness, but I stop as I feel your finger drifting further and further upward till it stops just short of my clit. You hold it there and I can feel you looking at me, and I know you’re waiting for me to make the next move. Almost like a marionette on strings, my hips roll, and my pelvis rises slowly towards your waiting finger, and I shudder as my slick clit meets your slicker digit, just the fleetest touch before you move your finger again and press down on my belly to make sure I don’t buck again...yet.

I hold still in anticipation of what you will do next, neither wanting to look away nor to see what’s coming. My eyelids flutter closed just as you slide two fingers up my lips to either side of my clit, grazing it from both sides and rolling it gently between them. The feeling is delicious, and the sudden thought of your tongue on my clit makes me jump. You notice, and raise an eyebrow at me as I suddenly open my eyes and look straight into yours. You want to know what I want. I murmur, softly, “lick my clit”. You pretend that you can’t hear me, cocking your head with one ear towards me, forcing me to say it louder. “Lick my clit...please,” I groan, the last word punctuated by the slick feeling of your two fingers rubbing against my clit with increased pressure.

This time, you acknowledge that you’ve heard me, and you bend your head low to my pussy, first kissing my mound as you continue to stroke my pussy and clit with your fingers before finally making your way down to my slick folds. The feel of your hot breath on my pussy is already driving me crazy, and my eyes beg you not to tease me any more. Your eyes lock on mine as you finally start to lick my clit, lightly at first, then harder, your tongue soft and warm. My one hand grips the sofa, the other grabs the back of your head and urges you on. I start to buck into your mouth in time to your licks, my face scrunching up from the feeling. You lick my pussy up and down, in long, deliberate strokes, your tongue like velvet and heat. Then you stiffen your tongue and start to tongue-fuck me, making me suddenly greedy for your hard cock filling me up, stretching me, taking me. Me pussy is very wet now. I gasp, my hand still at the back of your head – “fuck me. Please fuck me.” My back is arched from the pleasure of your mouth on my pussy and your tongue inside me, and it only relaxes when you rise, licking your lips and grinning at my need.

You get up off the couch now and unbuckle your belt. I reach up to help you – I can’t have it off soon enough – and then practically rip your jeans off you in my hurry to have you in me. Your stiff cock is soon waving in front of my face, and I take it in my mouth almost my instinct, my hunger now for cock in my mouth, in my pussy – anywhere. You let me lick and slurp at it like a particularly fast-melting ice-cream cone for a little while, your head thrown back and your hand guiding my head, before gently pushing me back. My mouth releases it with a soft pop, and I look up at you, wondering how you’ll want it.

You sit down on the couch, hips nearly at the edge, and pull me over to you, kissing me as you lower me into your lap, slowly impaling me on your cock. I pull my head back as your mouth finds my nipples, focusing on the feeling of fullness and heat as I take all of you in me, bit by bit. I like lowering myself onto you slowly, but you always grow a tad bit impatient towards the end, and thrust the last inch deep into me. I groan. I want to stay like this, savouring how stretched and perfect I feel, but you have other plans. I have my hands on your shoulders, clasped behind your neck, and you place your hands on my waist, beginning to rock me back and forth on your cock with slow, then faster movements. I have love handles which I am often insecure about, but in moments like these they are perfect for you to grip onto, and you are rocking me harder and faster now. I start slipping up and down on your cock, further and further each time till it is almost all the way out on the upswing and I slam down onto it on the way back. I have my eyes closed, my mouth open, and my breathing is ragged. Every so often I look down to see you looking up at me, your eyes a little glazed, your lips full and begging to be ravaged, and I bend to do just that. I suck on your lips as I fuck your cock, and in the midst of this charged soul-fucking, I forget my tears and I forget my anger. I just want to feel you in me, in this way, forever.

A little respect

I dress up for you, in short, not-quite-slutty skirts, in heels that elongate my legs and make my ass and tits jut out, in tops that give you unparalleled views of the valley between my breasts and leave my collarbone bare and inviting, in underwear that you like seeing my ass packaged in, in lingerie that you’ll love to rip off. I dress up for you so that your eyes can drink me in and give me that intoxicating sense of power over you. I dress up for you so that I can watch you undress me with your eyes.

I want you to undress me with your eyes. I want you to be that bold. I want you to unashamedly want me, and to flaunt that desire to me, so strongly that I can neither deny nor ignore it.

I want to be powerless in the face of your want.

I want your lust to overwhelm me.

I want not to know when you are going to make that want known. I want you to take me by surprise, push me up against a wall, hurt me with the urgency of your mouth against mine.

I want you to leave me breathless. I love it when you do that. I want you to know that that means that I’m ready and that I’m yours. Always.

I want you to say the words.

“Suck my cock.”

Say them. There is a direct link between my brain and my pussy, and those words, delivered right, will trigger a flood the likes of which you haven’t seen yet. So, I want you to say them. I want you to take my mouth. I want your fingers in my hair. I want you to gather it and pull at it, to push at the back of my head, to direct my movements. I want to feel your cock on my tongue. I want to find it difficult to breathe. I want to choke on your cock, unable to deal with how thick it is, how it fills my mouth and throat up. I want that more than I can express. The urge, the need to be filled up, and to have you start with my mouth, is just too powerful to deny. 

I want you to order me around. To toy with me. To make me wait on your words, unsure of what is to come next. I treasure helplessness. I want to be able to let go, to let you direct the show. I want to know that I can trust you enough to let that happen.

To hear you say the words, sounding for all the world like you mean them.

“Bitch.”

“Slut.”

“Whore.”

I want that rush.

I want you to respect me enough to disrespect me in bed.

I Want You

Is it wrong
that I've been thinking about you
all day long
and that
between curses and muttered imprecations
I've mouthed words
to myself
that I'd rather be whispering to you
slow words
words that burn
words that would make you stew
under pressure
till I came along
and with a flick of the wrist
gave you release.

All of My love

To murmur, softly dropping I don't knows onto the pillow,
To be silenced by a kiss, gentle but firm,
To be held and touched and distracted from yourself,
To surrender and let another decide for once,
Cede control and care and worry -
Just float along, let another direct the winds,
Decide to make them a gale, or a storm, or a gentle breeze


To submit.


To trust.

Sketch: (Unfinished)

She was lying on the bed, watching him, her dark eyes quietly contemplative. He sat in the chair across from her, drink in hand, the near-darkness of the room setting his teeth on edge. He could see a shadowy smile flit across her face for an instant before she stretched lazily, her muscles flexing beneath her skin. He watched her movements, languid and smooth, savouring the tension that floated in the air like the ghost of cigarette smoke. He was close enough to feel the heat radiating off her body, far enough to have to stretch for his hand to reach it.

Her eyes closed as she lay back onto the bed, ignoring him, her breathing soon becoming shallow as she slipped out of consciousness. He watched her still, swirling the last few fast-melting ice-cubes around in his glass while deciding what to do. Finally, he put the glass down, stood up in one graceful movement, and took the two steps to the bed in silence. He paused by the bed, looking down on her, at her slightly mussed hair as it lay across her face, at the relaxed pose of her arms by her sides, at the length and curve of her hip as it jutted out at an angle, at the plane of her calf muscle, at the tautness of the skin of her feet. One hand bent to take hold of a lock of her hair – unusually thick tonight – and he rubbed it between his fingers, taking in its texture. He knelt by her side, lowered his head, and inhaled deeply to have his first taste of her scent – a heady mix of the perfume she wore, the moist undertones of sweat as it beaded on her forehead, the clean, fresh smell of her hair, and the natural smoky aroma of her body.

She stirred just then, eyes opening to meet his, limpid pools of darkness meeting his feral stare. In an instant, she was wide awake, aware all at once of his fingers tangled in her hair, the trace of whiskey on his breath, the intensity of his gaze, the tension in his body as he leaned over her, the raggedness of his breathing.

His first kiss was hungry, his second, almost demure. Somewhere between the two, he slid onto the bed to prop himself above her, still gazing deep into her eyes. She responded with unexpected passion, meeting his actions with equal, opposing ones of her own. They traded kisses, caresses, and urgent whispers as if mirroring each other, as mind-readers would. Sometimes hurried, sometimes slow, their entanglement soon led to clothes being discarded, letting flesh meet flesh.

Reunion

I can't wait to see you again. 

We will kiss. It will go either of two ways - soft and tender, or hard and urgent. I daydream about both. I daydream about all the things I want to do to you - and all the things I want you to do to me.

Oh, to have you push me up against the nearest wall, your need obvious, to be able to taste your lust on your breath. To steal hurried kisses as I let my hands roam over your body, remembering anew its hardness, its tightness, its beauty. To feel your uneven, heavy breathing on my face between our kisses. To delve deep into the hollow of your neck; to make you groan into my ear as my mouth and tongue work on your skin, tickling, tantalising, sucking. To bring my leg up between yours, to feel your hardness against my thigh, to reach down to stroke it through your jeans. To feel your hot breath on my ear, to gasp as your tongue snakes in to lick it, warm and wet and wonderful. To squirm as you nibble at my earlobe. To watch you as you draw back slightly, looking straight into my eyes as your hand cups my breast, dragging your fingertip along its curve, flicking at my nipple, making me gasp. I love the way that makes me feel - that boldness in the way you treat my body, your eyes holding mine as you feel me up so unapologetically causes a rush of blood to my head and a rush of wetness to my pussy. To feel your warm hand reach under my shirt to caress my stomach and back. To arch my back at your touch. To feel the goosebumps as your fingers trail down my sides and hook into my jeans, tugging at them, testing their give. To feel your lips at my neck even as your hands unbutton and unzip my jeans, tugging them low enough to give you easy access to my pussy. To throw my head back and gasp as you massage my clit through my panties, to hear your low growl as you discover how wet I already am. To delight in your impatience as you push my panties aside so you can slide your fingers along the wet lips of my cunt, to moan as you tease me by doing just that and no more. To tremble against your other arm, half-resting against the wall, as I hook my leg around yours, as you send sparks shooting through me with your fingers. To buck against you, wanting more, only to have you pin me to the wall, forcing me to keep still while you tease me more. To moan, to curse, to beg for you to fuck me with your fingers. To cry out, “fuck yes,” when you finally do. To kiss you long and hard while your fingers pump into me, the feeling of having this done to me while nearly completely clothed, pushed up against a wall, at your mercy, turning me on even more. To move in time with your hand, thrusting back to meet it, fucking myself on it, gasping as your palm hits my clit each time. To lose my composure and give myself over to the feeling of being fucked by your fingers, of having something fill the ache inside. To sigh as you withdraw your fingers, to whine a little to have them back, my cunt feeling empty, needing to be filled. To moan as you force those same fingers into my mouth, making me lick and suck them clean. To feel your fingers entwined in my hair, pulling my face to yours as we kiss hungrily. To move down your body as you guide my head lower, forcing me to my knees. To hurriedly undo your belt and unzip your jeans, pulling them down (and with them your boxers). To take your beautiful, warm, hard cock in my hands and gently kiss the head, my lips slowly engulfing it, making you moan. To feel your hand tighten in my hair, urging me to take more of you in my mouth. To run my tongue up and down your cock, moving down to suck on your balls one by one (and then both together), before heading back up to pump your cock in and out of my warm, wet mouth. To hum around your cock, letting you enjoy the sensation. To let your hand at the back of my head set the pace; to let you use my mouth the way you want to; to let you fuck my face hard. To feel you fuck my mouth deep and hard, stifling my gag reflex so that you can feel the back of my throat on every thrust. To dig my nails into your butt so I have something to hold onto as you pump into me. To make my mouth clench around your cock the same way you love my pussy to, making you breathe harder and faster. To look up at you while I suck on your cock, my moans letting you know just how much I’m enjoying this. To keep sucking even as you gasp and come in my mouth, your fingers clenching in my hair painfully. To let you fill my mouth with your come, keep still as you spasm, not wanting to miss a drop. To feel you withdraw, while I lick my lips and swallow, a  sly grin on my face as I remember the look on yours the first time I did that. To gradually get to my feet, my hands caressing your arms, stomach, back, sides; moving in to plant soft kisses on your lips, your cheeks, your neck. To help you out of your remaining clothes, and to let you undress me, bit by bit, taking time in between to kiss you deeply, strong and hard, our tongues playing with each other, breathing you in and exhaling into you. To take you by the hand and lead you to the bed, lying down and beckoning for you to join me. To take your hands, all the while looking you in the eye, and to place them, one on my breast, one at my pussy, telling you in this way what I want from you. To let you discover how much wetter I am now as your fingers slip into me easily. To kiss you, to moan into your mouth, my hand at your neck, as your fingers toy with me, pinching my nipples, rubbing at my clit, fanning the flames that are growing within me. To bend my mouth to your nipples, sucking on them, nibbling at them till you push me away. To push your head down to my neck, to gasp as you nip at it and suck on the sensitive skin there, not yet leaving a mark. To push you further down, urging your mouth to my breast, murmuring to you that I want you to suck on my nipple, hard. To cry out as you do, to move against you as you engulf my breast in your mouth, all wetness and heat. To smile in delight as you release my nipple and move further down my body, only to squeal and giggle as you tickle my hip bones with your mouth, nibbling and licking and sucking, teasing me with a grin on your face. To beg you to stop, to try to wriggle out of the way, only to have you hold me down and continue the torment. To stop struggling and hold very still as your mouth moves oh-so-slowly towards the slick folds of my pussy, sighing as I feel your warm breath on them. To close my eyes and moan as your tongue slowly licks up and down my pussy lips, sending shivers of delight down my spine. To thread my fingers through your hair, pushing your mouth against me, even as I lift my legs to rest over your arms, knees bent. To throw my head back, little cries coming from my mouth, as your tongue slips into me, fucking me in quick flicks before your lips move up to capture my clit, exerting a wonderful pressure on it that drives me insane. To cry out in surprise when your hands reach up to play with my tits while you continue to eat me out. To let you know how good that feels, my words coming in bursts between my gasps, my hands moving to clench the sheets as I writhe underneath you. To cry out in frustration as you tease me with your mouth, slowing the pace down when all I want you to do is go faster. To watch you ignore my pleas, languidly licking up towards my clit in hard, measured strokes, making me desperate for more. To curse you when you stop, the weight of your torso against my legs making it impossible for me to move any closer to you, to get any sort of stimulation. To gasp when, suddenly, you tell me to shut up. To watch you for signs of what to do next, my submissive streak coming to the fore, waiting for you to take control. To keep still as you move up my body, your nails raking my sides, making me gasp, your eyes on mine. To watch as you pick up a cloth from the bedside table and fold it so that it can be tied around my head. To let you blindfold me, biting my lip to keep from trembling. To answer your questions as you wave your hand in front of my face, testing how well the blindfold works. To wonder what you’re going to do to me next, the possibilities making me even wetter. To feel that wonderful sense of vulnerability, of helplessness, as you tie my hands together above my head and fasten them to something near the bed. To try to control my breathing as you pull me further down the bed, stretching my arms out above me, making it difficult for me to move. To gasp as you shove two fingers inside me, curling them up to find my G-spot and massage it. To exhale as you suddenly withdraw them and trail them across my breasts, leaving a sticky path of wetness wherever your fingers go. To cry out as you bite down on the skin beneath my collarbone, hard enough and long enough to bruise, my breathing out of control by now. To kiss back hungrily when your lips meet mine, your hands roaming freely all over my body as you please, touching, caressing, scratching what is yours. To bite down on your lower lip, only to scream into your mouth as you drive into me with your cock, my wetness coating your sheathed length, allowing you to fuck me with long, hard strokes, pushing me into the bed, your mouth covering mine, your breath out becoming my breath in. To feel your hand on my neck restricting my breathing, your voice in my ear telling me that you’re going to fuck me like I deserve to be fucked, the raw edge in your voice setting my soul on fire. To move against you as best I can, prompting you to undo the ties binding my hands above my head, leaving them tied still, so that I can put my arms around your neck and wrap my legs around you, allowing you to penetrate deeper still. To beg you to fuck me harder and faster, to feel you pounding into me, filling every inch of me up, even as you claim my cunt, my tits, my ass, my mouth as yours, your voice filling my ears, a buzzing starting in my head. To feel you rip the blindfold off so that we can watch each other as we fuck. To have you free my arms and tell me to get on top and ride you. To switch positions with you still inside me, the glorious feeling of fullness making me never want to stop doing this. To change the pace of our fucking, grinding against your pubic bone while you play with my clit, my pussy clenching around your cock, causing you to spasm inside me. To ride you, slowly at first, then faster, rising up and slamming down harder and faster, my tits bouncing in tandem. To feel your hands grip my hips as you start to fuck back, the wet sounds of flesh slapping against flesh filling the room, the smell of sex having already pervaded it. To throw my head back and let go completely, fucking you, letting you fuck me, focusing on the feelings in my cunt, the wonderful feeling of friction that is building to an explosion inside me. To make you rub on my clit harder, faster, yes, faster still, until, wailing, I reach the point of no return, when the stars explode behind my eyes, our frenzied fucking drawing my orgasm out even further, making time stretch out to infinity in that glorious moment. To slowly come back down to earth, my pussy still spasming around your cock, the aftershocks of my orgasm still running through me, as yours begins, your cries soft and uncontrolled, your hands gripping my hips as you pulse inside me. To hold still, catching my breath, as you slow down, then stop, moving slightly so that you can slowly withdraw and take the rubber off, your breathing still heavy. To slowly, lazily, move so that we are lying together, face to face. To kiss you, slow and deep, as you put your arm around me and draw me close to you, our sweat now cooling, so that we can fall asleep this way.